So tonight as I was taking off my makeup and washing my face I started to think about my life before Jesus. Five and a half years ago there would not be a night that I was taking off my makeup before bed. I was always so afraid that it’d be the night my heart would stop working because of all the meth I had taken through out the day that I would stay up and make sure my makeup was on 100% perfect.. you know just in case I ended up not waking up.. I wanted to look beautiful for whoever found me. I had to make sure I would lay in bed looking perfect. It’s amazing how things can so suddenly change. Five years ago I did not see myself being clean yet alone a young woman following the Lord!
My 5th birthday is next month, I can’t believe it’s here already. Then in October it’ll be 5 years since giving my life to Jesus Christ. I love that the temptation and thoughts that i’d slip and use again have pretty much left they no longer tempt me. God has pulled me through that stage of my life. I now know I do not need to depend on any type of substance except Him. And it’s even cooler/amazing/wonderful/awesome/crazy that He is the one who has grown me and molded me into the woman that I am today. I can proudly, boldly stand up and proclaim that I was only able to quit using because of Jesus Christ.
I pray that the next year and the years to follow will remain how they are now…but even better. God has blessed me with so much just by me giving my life to Him.
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galations 2:20