Last night I felt the need to make a list, a list of all my past and recent sins. The night came and went and I did not do it.
So this morning I woke up and still felt the need to make this darn list. It was hard to write down the things I’ve done.. to see how gross sin is and how one ties into the other so easily. It broke my heart to see what a horrible person I used to be and the hurt and pain I may have caused other people that were in my life at that time. You see God has shown me the depths of my sins and how they affect so many. As I was writing them down I couldn’t help but cry and realize how lost and broken I once was, but thanks be to God that they don’t hold me down. I am not chained up to who I used to be. This realization gave me such joy and made me so thankful that I have a Daddy who loves me so unconditionally. It made me so thankful that Jesus would live a perfect life just to take my place on the cross.
As simple as this realization was it was what I needed. Although in the beginning I didn’t understand why making the list was something that had to be done I understand now. The grace that has been given isn’t something small it isn’t something that should be taken lightly. It has defined me and made me new. I am a sinner saved by grace. How beautiful are those words.
He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed. 1 Peter 2:24
In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding. Ephesians 1:7